Sorry for my lack of posting – I had so intended on this blog to be a release for me, a way for me to unwind and just write. However, it always seems to take a backseat to more fun things like organizing my kitchen pantry.
(true story – I actually am doing that – It’s amazing how much better it looks with some $3 glass containers from Hobby Lobby and $7 organizing buckets from IKEA!)
Anyway, I digress. (See?? I’m already off track!)
As with everyone, life has been crazy lately between new responsibilities at work including more travel than I was expecting, Emily’s never-ending energy (including every night at 1:30am…), Julia’s school and after-school activities, coaching soccer, family events, trying to have a social life with friends, all while fitting in Ironman training. Oh and did I mention a fun bout with pink eye? Good times right there. I don’t recommend it if you can avoid it – it feels like sand paper in your eye and I looked like I had been punched in the face.
Good times indeed.
I truly am kind of floating through day by day in a haze, not really knowing what time it is or what day it is.
I suppose that is ok at times because I don’t really have time to honestly sit and think about things too much or I would possibly paralyze myself and just shut down.
Why do I do it? Why not just give something up and call it a day? Well, because it’s all things I *WANT* to do and I really think it’s important to show my girls dedication and seeing things through to the end. Sure, there are times when I want to quit but I know they’re watching and that means a lot to me. It may not be for everyone, but for me, it’s what works.
The good news is that even with being somewhat of a crazy person always taking on too much, I somehow I’ve managed to really not miss any workouts (except for a swim when I was dealing with my stupid eye!). I ran a half marathon on Sunday and did better than I expected, even on fatigued legs/body/mind. I’m up to 4 hours on the bike, almost 2 hours on the run and about 40-45:00 on the swim (equivalent to about 1.5 miles for me).
It looks like my training is working for me and I’m getting better prepared than I expected.
So I sit here, 73 days from the race, and I have a mixture of emotions about it. I get butterflies all the time, but I’m also surprisingly calm (right now anyway…ask me in an hour and that will change). I know I’m putting in all of the hours now to reap the rewards on race day. I am trying not to look too far ahead so I don’t freak myself out too badly. I know what’s coming in the very near future. I know I have a 10 hour training day in the mix, a 100 mile bike ride, a 20 mile run, a 2 mile swim, etc. But in order to not overthink that too soon, I’m choosing to take it…
…say it with me..
…day by day.
I am staying focused, staying as engaged as I can with my family and smiling through the rough parts as best I can. Sure, there are days when it feels like it’s impossible. Sure, there are days when I am just done by 7pm. Sure, I’ve had to sacrifice something in order to do something else, but I’m making it work for me (for the most part).
Here are a few pictures to sum up a few of my recent days:
To anyone out there who thinks you can’t, or having a rough time, never fear. Tomorrow is a new day, right?
Day by day.
(hell, at this point I’ll take minute by minute!)
Have a great week!